3rd...4th.. and 5th Dec

I know I should have been studying right now but I just need a break. So back to my blog I go... As you can read on the title above uhuh... those are the dates of my first big exam, a big step towards the beginning of my future career and professional days.. wahaaa sounds so big ain't it? I hope everything will turn out fine.. Since I'll be burying my nose in my books for my birthday... and I can't join my friends to catch flyfm's gig weeks ago..... waaaa what a sad month.... anyway, what should I write here... I sound exhausted on here and the truth is I really am... Can't wait for a break... Out for now and see you rock...

Back to Blogging... Screwed up my Mock

Yeah... worthy title. Damn me.. I think I just screwed up my mock exam. I feel so blank and sick... What blog am I writing here?... It's full of my studies and such stuffs.. I must be a boring person when other people my age out there in another awesome college taking another awesome programme are lavishing themselves in an awesome place and getting sucked into all those craze for awesomeness...

I'm so not expecting really good results for my mock exam.. Urgh why bother. Anyway, everything happens for a reason... and there's a lesson behind every occurence. What's my lesson? Ermm... not to study last minute??? B-I-N-G-O. Yay... I got it right!! I got it right~~ lalalala~

Anyway, while writing this, I just discovered my talent to do multi-tasking. I'm writing this and thinking of what I'm going to write while estimating my marks for mock exam which I just hope for a pass since we do not have A, B, C, D...alif..ba...ta.. and such and at the same time negotiating with my friends about when to go out since I'm fasting today.. And oh yeah now I'm starting to invent a new recipe in my brain since well human beings are attracted to things due to some internal factors=I'm hungry so I detect stimuli that reminds me of food most. Rightt mr jay??? Oh yeah I forgot my T5 lecturer won't be reading this.

Anyway I think I wanna go for my drum lessons in Play By Ear. I don't want to go Yamaha Music.. damn I'd be stuck in traffic jam for a long long time since Yamaha Music is not that near to my house. What else should I say here on this blog since I'm pretty certain I can count people who read this by one hand. LoL. Anyway, if you accidentally came across this blog and asking who's this senile blogger is... take back your words cause I ain't senile... just stuck in the middle of nowhere... and still very young and vibrant.. hahahaha why am i saying this.. I'm out for now, continuing later. Tonight I'll be studying due to the emotional turbulence after taking mock exam in Sunway. Oh yeah I've decided on the recipe. I'm trying it for berbuka... It's not fasting month ok yeah I know. I'm just the kinda person who rushed at the end of Syawal for my Puasa 6. My God...Nabilah Mohamad next time... buat lah lagi!! but still... I might be better than you cause I have the initiative to fast!!! boohoo!!! joking.. anyway bubbye...

See you rock. muahx

PS. please please please pray that I get good results for my mock and my finals on the 3rd, 4th and 5th of december..

Teiya <-----------*yawn..* B-Oooorringggg.......

okay lemme try a Gossip girl approach cewah

You know you love me,
XOXO
T


hahahaha this is hilarious!!!!!! to me ;)

When something sounds this sweet, it really should be appreciated

I was just browsing for fun when I heard the girl sang it on disney channel. I like it better than the original ones. But then again, I alway had a thing for philipino voice talents. They're just awesome.

try strumming your guitar along if you like. LoL

VERSE:
Am F C G
i've always been the kind of girl that hid my face
Am F C G
so afraid to tell the world what i've got to say
Am F C G
but i have this dream right inside of me
Am F
im gonna let it show
C
its time
G F
to let you know
G
to let you know


CHORUS:
F C
this is real, this is me
G Am F
i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be now
C G
gonna let the light shine on me
F C
now i've found, who i am
Am G
there's no way to hold it in
Dm F G
no more hiding who i wanna be
Am
this is me

Whoa... June 22nd... until now September 20..

Have I been shut off from the world for a great three months?? That sure is a long time. Anyway, I'm doing CAT now. And I must say I'm pretty much exhausted. Oh God I'm having tests and exams every other two weeks. But for those considering to take up CAT as a fast track to ACCA, it's a good course I'm sure, especially if you are determined to be a professional accountant. But be prepared with the load that comes with it!! >=p

And if you think you just want to do cost budgeting and bookkeeping for a start with minimum theory it's best to consider degree... since those kind of lesson only features say 20-40% of the course. Accounting is more like biology and physics combined together than you think...urgh... but I guess you have to cope with it. Since I'm expecting that ACCA's just full of theories and laws. But at least by doing CAT you are exposed to 'accounting hell' early. Sometimes you just feel like giving up but giving up doing something because it's hard is not worth it. At least for me... Lol.

Anyway, I've just passed one introductory paper that is T2 last week... or so... I guess... haha sorry since my sense of time isn't that good ya.. damn I dunno where I lost my 2 questions but it's all good and satisfying. I do not know why T2 has the lowest passing rate in the world. I consider the paper was easy if you actually just have a general idea over your syllabus. And it's best to make sure that you are born with T2 Information for Management Control BPP textbook in your mouth...

But sometimes I wonder why people claimed that objective( multiple choices ) questions are hard, I think it's fine for me because I'm not the kind of person who swallow the whole theory as a whole, I'm more to just a touch n go learner when it comes to theory just for the sake of getting the idea into my head and MCQ actually helps you by telling what is really going on in the question. Well, provided that your comprehension skills are fine. But when it comes to subjective I might puke on the exam paper itself... Anyone knows memory-improving techniques? I do not want fancy Harvard techniques.. Malaysian ones will do for me. haih.. anyway, I really want to update my blog often. Anyway, I'll post something good later on. =)

See you rock

and oh yeah... this is where I'm studying now.. haih so much for all those bloody esteem-

crunching scholarship interviews... tsk3

Old School Memories

THINK BACK TO 4th and 5th year of highschool.

Let's see how much you remember and how much you regret...


1 Wht stream were you in?
Pure Science.. but seriously at first I was thinking of taking up ICT or Sports Science...lol but due to my lack of talent and knowledge in IT and sports I resolved to Pure Science for more options. But I don't really regret it. It's a great path for an interesting approach in learning and offer more options if you are like me... somewhat undecided..



2 Who were your seatmates?
F1... Jennifer, Alicia and Roshiny

F2...Anis

F3...Anis and Su Min

F4...Anis

F5...Anis



lol.. I gave all 5 years instead of just 4th and 5th

F4



3 Still remember your english teacher?
F4 and F5 always have been Puan Rusnah, favourite quote.. "In the name of my God and your God.." hihi

4 What was your first class?
Urm.. homeroom?

5 Who was your first love then?
No love.. all lies.. I sounded so cold.. LOL

6 Made friends to the lower years?
Yeah of course.. lovely little juniors.. some aren't though. haha

7 Had a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yeah.

8 How was your class schedule?
Packed... Biology for three periods straight... *throw up*

9 Made any enemies?
Naah not really..

10 Who was your favorite teacher?
Well there are a few but the best would be my Maths teacher Mr Ng KC.

11 What sport did you play?
Paintball, taekwando, futsal

12 Did you buy your lunch?
No I hardly eat during recess. But if I do, I'd go no more than ice cream. Lol

13 Were you a party animal?
I like parties.. but I ain't an animal sorry to say.

14 Were you well known in your school?
I dunno. I guess to some. But to some others I'm nobody.

15 SKIP CLASSES?
Yeah... a lot... I used many reasons though... "Teacher.. can you excuse me please cause I have to go and invent some papers out of lalang.." lol.. they never suspected me though..

16 Did you get suspended/expelled?
Never... what kind of question is that??

17 Can you sing the School song?
Yeah.. haha

18 What was your favorite subject?
Add maths

19 What was your school's full name?
Sultan Abu Bakar School on the badge.. but SMK Sultan Abu Bakar on letter heads.. I wonder why.. hahaha

20 Did you go to the dances?
Yes but I don't really dance.

21 Where did you go most often during breaks?
Ohoo.. my secret hide out. where I can peacefully sit down without the teachers asking me to prepare speeches or those prefect nonsense. But, it's secret so not gonna tell you, if one day I'm destined to go back with any of you reading htis to that school, I'll tell. Haha

22 If you could go back in time and do it all over, would you?
Haha.. yeah I would

23 What do you remember most about 4th year?
Had my first 'boyfriend'. haha

24 Worst memory in 4th year?
Well, there are a few I can't name.

For the sake of updating my blog..

It's been 10 days since I last posted on my blog. Duh~ I should have adopted a more disciplined routine in updating my blog. I really should since being me, I really am free all the time it's just that there's this ultimate laziness ruling me after 6 months of body building not in a healthy way mind you. What's the healthy way? Well the one where you actually build your muscles by working out say in the gym. No no no, my way is different. It's the unhealthy one. The one where you consume excess fat that adds to cellulite in your body. But I hope it will go away once I've started college.

Yeah you got it right, I'm starting college. Beginning 1st of July, I am officially a student in SYUC. Yadayada... so much for me to go to a university. Can't I just enter the next phase of life as a baby? I kinda missed it. But I guess I'm already grown up but still not an adult la. I can't bubble or frolic and get into all those silly girly crushes and scrapes anymore... but knowing me.. I know there's still room for that. I still wanna have a lil bit of fun you know.. ;P lol.

So by next week, I'll start posting bout my college life maybe. And know what sucks even more? I didn't get my license yet!!! And I have to drive to college..pray that everything will turn out OK then. And no, don't worry, I'm not thinking of driving illegally. It's just that I'm still waiting for my jpj test this week. Please please please let me pass in one shot. My driving school's just too lousy and the way they do their work... It's really unsystematic at all. I kinda regret of choosing it. Haiz... Anyway, I'll post more later.


See you Rock!
xOxO

Im Signing It

Mood: Depressed.. sarcastic... and uncertain


Sometimes I just made an ass out of myself.. I guess.. I always say the wrong things to people or my friends. Sometimes.. with my bloody jokes that I don't really meant truthfully I tend to hurt others... yuck... but when I'm depressed.. that's what you get from me.. so sorry in advance.. next time you hear me blabber or say something that hurts you.. forget it.. I really don't mean it..

Anyway... I just watched Portugal's match against Czech.. Portugal won. Yay... I love CR's goal. damn smart.. but CR's just getting more and more arrogant don't you think? he's good and cute and all but last time he was sweet you can tell when he scored he didn't taunt or show exaggeratingly proud arrogant face.. haih.. where's my old hubby la?? nowaday's fuhh.. when he scored his wonderful goal.. there he goes... sickeningly annoying but yet oh-so-charming...

OK2... I'm drifting away already I see... today precisely about 9 hours from now I'm heading to Tanjung Lumpur to sign the contract for biasiswa kecemerlangan Menteri Besar.. there's no turning back.. since still there's no news from UEM.. I've called them on Monday and the officer said they'll be holding a board meeting at the end of the week.. and the interview went a long long way back... only now they're holding the meeting.. I guess they'll only be sponsoring 3 person this year instead of the usual 4 or the 'hope-so' 10. I understand the fate of those going overseas all lies on the price of a bloody barrel of crude oil... or so called black diamond I see...

Anyway.. wish me all the best.. ACCA will be tough.. I keep hearing that and thinking about it over and over again but deep down inside I know thinking it's tough will only make it tougher.. No matter what or how people 'try' to comfort me.. they still won't understand it.. It's my future I'm talking about..

But it's a good thing I made the decision the hard way and started off we've something I never expect. To be honest, the way I started college, no it's not how I want it to be. But then again, as I took a shower in the middle of the night I remembered how I started my secondary school. I was frustrated I didn't get boarding school... and I got a school that I chose after resolving to the thought I won't go to SBP. Then I'm thinking of staying with my dad in KL and go to the private school near my house where I should have started primary except that I moved to Kuantan.. it was frustrating..

But I guess I know myself.. I admit I can cry a bucket sorta like human water pipe... but most of the time I just do that to comfort myself or maybe crave for a piece of attention from my dear loved ones..lol forgive me but I'm the youngest in my family love the attention I'm getting but I hate crying because I'd be exhausted after some time.. But crying doesn't make me weak and it doesn't mean that I'm giving up. Most of the time I cried is to release anger or disappointment deep inside of me. But because of the anger and disappointment, I can be self-motivated at times even I myself expect that I'll breakdown and give up.. and with that strength I started high school and I must say what I've achieved in high school even though it's not that big to be proud of (I don't want to be like Cristiano Ronaldo here), it is way way waaaay better than my primary.

And I hope and pray that the same strength will be granted to me again after the frustration I'm facing now... I thought I did well enough but it seems that the chance and opportunities don't really belong to me.. Not everyone has the chance to have the best as in best school, best college, and then best unis, best jobs and such.. What we can do at least is saying that what we have is the best for us I guess.. but for me it's going to take some time.. please allow me some time.. please..

Hence, with this feeling of anger and disappointment, I gratefully at the same time indignantly declare war against the 'looser' syndrome and strive for my ACCA... and bid goodbye and goodluck for those leaving for overseas... with the farewell saying... I am not a loser.. I just want the best.. I wanna start my life after secondary on the 'best' path since I do not have that option when I started secondary.. which in my terms my most desirable path.. If I do not get to the best pre-u college, do not go to the best country for my course that I've set my own benchmark, I can resolved to go to one of the best acca tuition provider in the world.. even if it's local la.. that's what I told my dad though.. for him to give it a rest on the fact that I'm not going overseas..


See you rock...